i'll be here for you always

Ahhhhhhhhhh , life is so fuck up to me .
No joys no anything , oh well . Tmr , selyn asked me out .
whether to drink , wahaha ! Anything ahhhhhhhh . (:
Drinking Sorrows <3.LOL , don't know who's dinner . Didn't went down . -.- Mother don't let , fuck fuck fuck ! ): Not many people went down .
Roarhhhhhs, I miss my sister fuck loads ! :D I miss my stephanie . hahah , cutiepretty . I don't know what to buy for her . Her birthday is on 1deccccccc ! :D Happy birthday in advace , girl .
Just now , 4plus . slept till 7plus . Didn't on my phone for silent . Zzz , alot of messages & calls woke me up . I was like , fuck siol .
Oh yah , the last call is from mother . LOL , I shouted at her .
I said that I was sleeping , in a fucking tone . hahah .& I didn't said byebye & ended the call . she called home .
LOL , I pick up . she said "why is you pick up?" .
I was getting a little angry .
& said , HOW I KNOW IS YOU CALL ?! Zzzz , fucking hot . don't know what's happening to me . Suddenly the world turns upside down without you , baby.Those time you message me early morning , & made me got refresh .I couldn't get into bed after I saw your message , I was like a retard . When you told me that this was over , tears rolled down . I began sobbing like a retard . Your voice make me miss you more .
Once I couldn't hear your voice , I could not even get into bed .
I wanted to fly badlyyyyyyyyyyyy. Fly to a place with no ryan .
Rather then I suffering alone , without your love .